The fear of never being disciplined again

I haven’t been disciplined lately. I’ve slept later than usual, I’ve been less productive than usual and I’ve gone to sleep later than usual.

If I’d have to judge myself, I’d say that I’ve done pretty bad.

But I don’t.

I’ve been enjoying myself so much. Maybe this is some kind of vacation for me, I don’t know.

Anyways today I got a thought that gave me shivers:

“What if I can’t become disciplined again, but instead will just submit to short-term pleasures over and over?”

After thinking about it, I concluded that it’s yet another example of bullshit that my mind played on me.

Whatever you do, if you truly enjoy yourself, it’s fine.

However, when what you do becomes something that’s just there to kill some time and you become disappointed in yourself because you don’t achieve anything, you have to act.

I’m fully aware that there are people who believe that they can’t become disciplined once they’ve succumbed to their short-term pleasures, such as sleeping late.

Usually it’s the belief of not being able to do it that sets them back along with the “feeling” of maybe not being able to do it.

I’ve been self-aware long enough to realize that our feelings are sometimes the worst indicators when it comes to reality or what “we should do”

I know that if I really feel the need to become disciplined, I can do it. The only thing needed for that is the determination and the decision to simply do it.

That will be relevant if at some point I feel that my life is slipping and it affects negatively to my daily life. Until then, I’m just going to enjoy myself.


Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *